Breaking anxiety's grip

Things would always turn out good for me, somehow. I really wouldn't have gone to the party today if I wasn't chewed out by my Dad the last time I skipped on a party. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Reunion of sorts with old friends and getting to know a few other good people. We played this Ninja game after the party at the venue and in the tram on our way home.

I guess I'm just always anxious for nothing. There's always a room for breaking free! Yes? Yes!

Enjoy life!

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Happy 21st to ME!

My first birthday in Vienna. It was anything but fabulous. I was even wearing a shirt I wore the last night. Talk about dugyot days and ambush dinner, huh? But it's just the way I like it. No party, just a few good people -- yes, family! I wasn't really planning on doing anything at all. But my parents insisted on going out for dinner. Since I wasn't buying, anyway, I gave in! Haha, I know I'm bad. :D We ended up at a Chinese Restaurant just in our neck of the woods, one block away from home.

It was interesting that the resto was also celebrating it's 21st birthday this year! Yikee! Happy 21st birthday to you, too, Zhong Hua Restaurant! Thanks for giving me my first dose of Peking duck!

Dad at 45

At Brandauer's with family. Spareribs overload, but yummy! Ordered "Schweinbraten mit Knödel". It's basically thin-sliced pork and flat-sized bola-bola in gravy. I liked it!

2 am, twice it was!

My computer clock struck 2am twice! When it’s about to turn 3am, the clock struck back to 2am. Cool. It’s the time of year when they adjust the time here in Austria (and some parts of Europe). It’s nice, people get to sleep longer.

The Symptoms!

It’s undeniable!


Early in the morning…
…woke up from a dream
…found it hard to breathe
…then, checked on my phone
…and kept telling myself this could not be “IT”


This could not really be it, right?

Plans, plans, plans

It’s really a pain in the ass when things don’t go as planned. I am so used to planning ahead, writing every single detail on my planner. When something suddenly comes up out of the blue, I get all sorts of agitation. Like how I planned to be home from September 2 to 13 (12 days), leave on the 1st and go back on the 13th. Actually, last night I was supposed to head off to the province up north. Unfortunately for me, I made some miscalculations. The event in the province down south would actually be on the 13th and so I have to be there on the 12th, which means I have to leave on the 11th. That’s minus 2 days. And also last night, to my surprise, someone called to say they’re coming over. They have something from my parents for me, which means I have to move my trip today. That’s minus 1 day, all in all that’d be three days less. It’s not that I blame anyone for it, I just feel stressed that’s all.


Having said all that, it is a mystery that I don’t see a clear view of my future. I mean, the bigger view. It is, to me, still as vague as it has always been. Being so into details makes me miss out on the main point. I guess I’m just constantly going with the flow. Wherever river I’m in right now, I hope it’ll lead me to the right sea.

Mar Roxas gives way to Noynoy Aquino for 2010

I’m teary-eyed while listening to the speech of Senator Roxas. It gave me goosebumps. I just hope that the selflessness he talked about will not be just on pen and paper. Pinas, ftw!