My looking forward

Just before last week, I was too busy couch potato-ing at home for more than a month or so. Save for the times I was “leaf-lifting” through the pages of my chemistry books, reviewers, and previous notes. My daily routine’s as simple as waking up at 8am, taking a bath, pigging out, watching TV, web surfing, studying, and whatnots at home. During those weeks, I used to go out of the house only AT MOST twice a week. Take that very literally, as in I didn’t get to go out of our main door for days. It’s not that I can’t, but I just opted not to. Home’s fine. I only do go out for unavoidable circumstances: 1.) during our “compulsory” exams at the review center once every two weeks, 2.) when I run out of food in the fridge, and 3.) during “emergencies” such as my application for the board exam. For that, I missed looking forward to some things.

During my undergrad years, I used to look forward to a lot of things -- the first day of classes, the LAST day of classes, the upcoming exams (Naks! Looking forward to take the exams? Don’t buy it), the suspension of classes (whether due to bad weather, rallies, unexpected holidays, blah, blah, blah), the time to end each class, the end of the day, the weekends…haaaayyy. But days at home…I seem to look forward to almost nothing at all. Ah, at the very least, I do look forward to little stuff like watching shows I was engrossed in – The Tyra Banks Show, Ambush Makeover, and some local shows. I never had the chance to look forward to the weekends anymore. In fact, I can hardly notice the day of the week or the date of the month!

Unfortunately, and FORTUNATELY, my lazing came to an end on a Monday last week. Opportunityknocked on my door and I whole-heartedly let it in. And I’m rejoicing that at last I’ll be looking forward to some things again! Things like when it’s time to go home after a hard day’s work, the free Ikot ride in school on Tuesdays, my paycheck, and the weekends! Yeehuh!

Butterflies all over my stomach

It's 5am and I'm having butterflies all over my stomach. Today's my last exam for my BS Chem degree...hopefully. I'm having all sorts of jittery feelings and I can't help but "blog" it.

I'm still anxious as ever towards graduation day! Am I gonna make it? Though uncertainty strikes, I still wanna believe that I'm gonna make it. It feels like 10 years already even though it has barely been two weeks. I just started to realize for real that I really really need to graduate! It really scares me...

So, BAD and TET, you've finally SLAYED YOUR DRAGONS AND BEFRIENDED YOUR DEMONS, eh?

Ginugulat nyo talaga ako Bad at Tet ngayon...! Grabeeee...! Ambot talaga, Ambot! (Haha, sorry at kelangan ko talagang sabihin ang "ambot". Eto lang kasi ang alam kong word...! :D)

Pero eto...di ko talaga kinaya ang trip nyong dalawa ngayon! Pramis!!!! Napa-"whhhhaaaaaaaaattttt?!" talaga ako at sobrang natuwa sa mga pangyayari. Ang babaw ko shocks! Kasi naman...magkasunod kong nakita ang pics nyo at magkaibang sites pa (Friendster at Multiply). Stand-out talaga dahil sa dinami-dami ng posts sa Multiply at friends' update sa Friendster ay napansin ko talaga ang sa inyong dalawa na effortless...lalo na yung kay Bad na tipong hindi naman ako normally tumitingin sa friends' update tapos napansin ko yung kay Bad?! Haha!
Rurok!!...at rurok din ba ang kababawan ko? :D

Ayan, nagamit ko tuloy agad ang quote for the day ko!
"...slaying your dragons and befriending your demons..." -- Ala Paredes

Nice one, Bad at Tet! Bangs kung bangs...at bikini kung bikini!! Ahahahay! :)

Hmmm...actually, I've already been thinking of "slaying my dragons and befriending my demons" in YOUR kind of way... Hmmm...Friends, so ano gusto nyong new look ko ha? Afro na ba ha, game? (Bad, I'm hearing you laugh... **Bionic ears**) :D Bwahahaahahahaha!
Brace yourselves...!!!! <--- Bad's one-liner these days.

Bentang-benta si Sir Arellano

Bentang-benta talaga ang quotable quotes at words of wisdom. Pramis! :) Although nakuha lang naman din ni sir somewhere ang iba (i.e. Hannah, ang isang alamat ng Chem). At di ko na maalala ang iba pang QQ's. Pero eto...


Pag napre-pressure na ko sa acads at dahil sa bwiset na pag-graduate...

• Wala akong karapatang ma-pressure...hindi ako GAS!

Pag excited na kong maging yuppie dahil pa rin sa bwiset na pag-graduate...

• Wala akong karapatang ma-excite...hindi ako ELECTRON!

At sabi nga din ni sir...

• Not everything is learned in school.

  
  

And so now I say..."Why go to school?" Hehe, joke lang. Seryoso, gusto ko talaga pumunta sa unity rally bukas pero dahil sa acads (112.1 special project at 112 exam ng 7-9pm ), ayan...pano na ang pakikibaka ng isang iskolar ng bayan na tulad ko?!


Pahabol:

Bawal kang mag-settle down, hindi ka PRECIPITATE!

Realization: 4 cups of coffee won't do me any good

About 10 hours ago, I thought of drinking 4 cups of coffee to keep me from being a sleepyhead and to stay wide awake for a hardcore acad mode. Because, may I say that based from experience, 2 cups don't work for me. I didn't expect to be this WIDE awake. Literal talaga, shocks. That even though I'm supah dupah sleepy to the nth level, my eyes won't close. Kadiri talaga. Arrrggh. The feeling's really like sleeping with eyes wide open, that's totally and definitely different from my usual oh-my-God-I-am-oh-so-sleepy-na moments. And I've actually spent almost half of the time just whining to myself to please please SLEEP (you know, that kind of sleep with eyes closed and consciousness temporarily shut down -- yeah, sleeping in the MOST real sense please!) instead of studying for my exam. Darn. This is really one helluva night and really really driving me nuts. I wanna sleep big time! Grrrrrrrrr........!

I know, I know...I won't do this again (at least for now).

**Can someone just sing me a lullaby...?

Yearbook writeup

Currently Reading: My Peyups Tale by Raphlin Mirabeau Leyma

Now Showing: Reality Bites

“It's all just a... a random lottery of meaningless tragedy and a series of near escapes.” - Troy Dyer

Now Playing: This Side by Nickel Creek

“Your first dawn blinded you, left you cursing the day.

Entrance is crucial and it's not without pain.

There's no path to follow, once you're here.

You'll climb up the slide and then you'll slide down the stairs.

It's foreign on this side,

But it feels like I'm home again.

There's no place to hide

But I don't think I'm scared.”

"Blessed are the forgetful: for they get the better even of their blunders."

- Friedrich Nietzsche

Oh, How I Remember the KISSES!

I was just reminded of the legendary kisses of my childhood. You know, the little kisses that we used to put in plastic egg shells with powder to let them multiply. (Yeah, multiply...) It was a vivid memory of my grade school days. Ah, how I miss those days -- my childhood -- when all I can think of was how to get away from my Ninang who always insists on letting me wear those kikay clothes during wash-day Fridays in school. If only I can always be young and carefree...


It's a lot more different now. I realized just now how I was not able to take responsibility for my stupid decisions and damaging actions. How could I? When in truth, I always feel young and carefree, I never seem to grow up.


Now, let the kisses remind me of my sweet and fragrant childhood that never ceases to make me smile even for a split second.